northen downpour sends its love.

5:37 AM

it's been a year since my secondary schools days and i actually amazed me how much i've changed. i mean i not exactly the kiddy KY anymore and if i do i'm just pretending i guess. ahaha!

lame... anyway, take relationship for instance. If i was to be one year ago, i would weep my ass out if i am to be out of a relationship and i'll feel lonely and the thought about have another girl or salvaging the previous keeps poping outta my mind. But now everythings seems clear (i'm totally writing this rationally lol) it's like i dont desire to have a girlfriend i dont feel lonely in fact i'm actually quite relieved. that's kinda wierd cause people usually tell you "hey grow up already got girlfriend?" it's usually when we get older when we think about relationship and all.

i guess that's not so true for me. i think of relationship as a burden to my life. i see my friends one after another involved in relationships and me? Nothing! but i just dont feel anything, maybe i'm just not into it i mean i am really not dying to be with a girl i feel truely free alone. maybe i enjoy the process of wooing but soon after that i feel like a caged up bird- cant wait to fly away.

i guess everyone just has different mindset as for me single equates to free which equates to me being happy. of course it's not that i gay or being a virgin my life or something. i mean for me, just get in then get out immediately. get in too long, i end up locked up again.

well i guess i am just used to the lonely feeling that i have felt since a long time so much so that i want that i my life it's just wierd if it becomes absent. anyway kudos to me i am truely enlightened. HA!

6:49 AM

It's just a random post. hahas just wanna write something about blog entries. i have no idea why but some how i'm just stuck with the fate of being blogged in one entry but somehow entries about me on the blogs of my beloved ones would eventually dissappear. is this my fate? to be forgotten everytime i start a relationship? to be just a small insignificant part of your life, other people's life. i guess i can never last in any relationship, can i? i'm just so jealous when i see other couple on the streets holding hand in hand talking happily.

enough of my ranting i guess.

5:51 AM

just being able to see your face make me happy.

just hearing your voice brighten up my day.

just exchanging gaze with you make my heart skip a beat.

just talking to you makes me want to do silly things for you.

just holding you in my arms 即使没有明天也不后悔。

just kissing you in the lips makes me sure that i will still love you even in my next life.

just being able to know that you love me makes me willing to die for you.

seeing you cry makes me want to take your pain away.

seeing you hurt i rather it was me.

even if you dun love me it doesn't matter because i know you'll be happier else where.

even though you look weak you are strong inside.

that what i love about you.

i really miss you.

i love you.

6:52 AM

sickness i hate it.

why do people fall sick? i mean why cant we exist in the world where there is no sickness or illness where everyone lived till ripe old age wont it be great?

well i'm sure different people have different perceptions. i saw so many people around me ill down with the demon, it really saddens me.

but i noticed something. every times we fall sick, our body become immune to it and produce antibodies which can kill these foreign bacteria.

well i notice a change to most patients that recover from their serious illness they become stronger in term of their mind and will to live on. they become braver and stronger in terms of pyscologically and physically.

it always when we go through problems and obstacles and overcome them, then we can actually learn to appreciate all around us and strengthen ourselves.

maybe having sickness is not so bad after all, it is a test and a battle where we can test our "abilities". it is always the strong hearted and those who face the music who are the victors in life.

great lesson learnt.

11:26 PM

maybe grieve is pain maybe grieve is hell maybe grieve is unhappyness...

how about smiles?

maybe smiles are delight maybe smiles are happyness maybe smiles
are heaven-like...

but do u know that while some poeple are smiling some are grieving?
what is the meaning of having wars?

that's what i was thinknig when i studied social studies...

it is because of those who creates arms creates war...

what will happen if there had never been arms created? but we must also think that no one actually wants to invent arms...

no one will do that because no ones likes war for example invention of atomic bombs i'm sure those scientist does not wish for that not even the government.

but why do people do such things?

Greed.
it always starts with greed.

weapons are first invented during the B.C period. they are used to hunt and for protection.
Imagine if these weapons do not exist?
how do we get the meat placed in front of our table?

pain and sadness...

i hate all that...
why? why?

I hate the war... i really do... seeing peoples' pain and grieve it really is a heart-breaking sight...

oh well guess that's all for now...

6:48 AM

anyway like i said this blog it not some blog i set up to talk about my daily life as it's really quite boring.. same shit... sleep eat shit drink walk blah blah blah..

hey this blog is about this man 's random feelings and thoughts that he has...

i'll just wirte when i feel like writing... today's a rather blue day..

hahas blue= low/ not high...

ending my post for now...

6:40 AM